Lost in Space

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And I'll never lose my faith in you
How will I ever get to heaven, if I do
Feels just so fine
When we touch the sky me and you
This is my idea of heaven
Why can't it always be so good?
But it's all right, I know you're out there
Doing what you've gotta do
You are my soul satellite
I'd be lost in space without you
And I'll never lose my faith in you
How will I ever get to heaven, if I do 

Lighthouse Family — Lost in Space

For a long time, I feel love is a feeling that makes us depending on someone so much

whatever they do, will always influence our emotion and feeling

whatever you do, you will always depend your happiness on them

I felt that many times, and it leads me to nothing but pain.

I always fight for him, but he gave me nothing

I always forgive him, but he still did same mistakes over and over again

I always sacrifice for him, but instead he did me arbitrarily

I did not realize, every time I hurt, even I forgive him, my heart is ticking its time bomb for all he has done to me. And then, kaboom! It exploded, and I feel so done.

Is it really a love?

Until someday, I feel something.
Some feeling that makes me want to be a better woman
A better woman who can fit a good man like him perfectly
Some feeling that makes me feel safe
Instead of feeling worried he will be stolen by another woman
Some feeling that I do not have to rush it
Cause I really believe if it's meant to be, it will be

And the most important is...
I do not depend my happiness on him
I do not depend my sadness on him

Most people always said that if you don't depend on him, then it is not love.
Really?

But take the other side, if you're really depend on him, you won't allow him to be busy with his own business.
You will always need him so you can be happy
You can't be happy by yourself
Your happiness will be imprisoned

I don't want to be like that.
 And what I feel to him now is..

I can be happy with myself

But with him, I am happier