In Your Eyes

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I can't count how long... But some time has passed
I wonder just how much I know about you?
Following along the map with my finger isn't doing too much
I notice your uneasy face, though you are hiding it

As though resisting the face paced day that will be tomorrow
Even though I run about, it's strange... My heart sketches you
 
When I looked up, radiance filled the sky, without fading
If only we could have been like the sun, shining all the time
 
I want to be held by your scent... For just a little longer
The air outside pulls at my collar, then I turned my back on it
 
My sighs, blurred white, tell me of the season
While repeating it all, suddenly I thought... Why am I here?
 
I want to be by your side forever, gazing at your smile
I want to live each changing moment in your eyes
In that one scene, forever colored in gentle hues
In order for us to be closed, I want time to stop forever
 
I want to be by your side forever, gazing at your smile
I want to live each changing moment in your eyes
If one day I can take you out to a brilliant season
To where the flowers are, blooming in the sky like snow...
 To where the flowers are

L'Arc~en~Ciel — 瞳の住人

Lost in Space

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And I'll never lose my faith in you
How will I ever get to heaven, if I do
Feels just so fine
When we touch the sky me and you
This is my idea of heaven
Why can't it always be so good?
But it's all right, I know you're out there
Doing what you've gotta do
You are my soul satellite
I'd be lost in space without you
And I'll never lose my faith in you
How will I ever get to heaven, if I do 

Lighthouse Family — Lost in Space

For a long time, I feel love is a feeling that makes us depending on someone so much

whatever they do, will always influence our emotion and feeling

whatever you do, you will always depend your happiness on them

I felt that many times, and it leads me to nothing but pain.

I always fight for him, but he gave me nothing

I always forgive him, but he still did same mistakes over and over again

I always sacrifice for him, but instead he did me arbitrarily

I did not realize, every time I hurt, even I forgive him, my heart is ticking its time bomb for all he has done to me. And then, kaboom! It exploded, and I feel so done.

Is it really a love?

Until someday, I feel something.
Some feeling that makes me want to be a better woman
A better woman who can fit a good man like him perfectly
Some feeling that makes me feel safe
Instead of feeling worried he will be stolen by another woman
Some feeling that I do not have to rush it
Cause I really believe if it's meant to be, it will be

And the most important is...
I do not depend my happiness on him
I do not depend my sadness on him

Most people always said that if you don't depend on him, then it is not love.
Really?

But take the other side, if you're really depend on him, you won't allow him to be busy with his own business.
You will always need him so you can be happy
You can't be happy by yourself
Your happiness will be imprisoned

I don't want to be like that.
 And what I feel to him now is..

I can be happy with myself

But with him, I am happier